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My Week on Twitter: 2010-03-05

Friday, March 5, 2010

New PMC pieces come from a deliberate & meditative workmind, w/ techniques that love the material instead of fighting it. Vast improvements! #
@helio_girl Precious Metal Clay = sculptural silver medium. It tends to crack awkwardly when bullied. Needs patience & love to be beautiful. in reply to helio_girl #
@helio_girl See also: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Metal_clay. And here's a good example of interesting PMC texture: http://bit.ly/aSzlsG in reply to helio_girl #
It's gloriously nice. A woman in a bowler hat is selling ginger ice cream on the park corner, a flock of puppies are gallumping in the snow. #
Quoting Nick Eriksen, London political candidate: "Some women are like gongs – they need to be struck regularly." Rage. http://bit.ly/6UeR1M #
@MajaMajaMaja If your friend's stalker already knows her home address & (I assume) legal name, I think the police are her best bet. in reply to MajaMajaMaja #
@MajaMajaMaja That said, she should take all of her social networks as private as possible or disable them. And change ALL of her passwords. in reply to MajaMajaMaja #
@MajaMajaMaja Does she have a blog? Host any websites? Is she on her company's online directory? in reply to MajaMajaMaja #
Flogging Molly's playing in midtown tonight. I completely forgot to plan for it, but s'ok. I can store dancing energy away for later nights. #
@melebeth And possibly chain yourself to the steps of some very impressive buildings? in reply to melebeth #

13-Hour Workday Hat

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Some new projects and work, and I’m pulling long hours; over 13 a day and I call it a shocker. Shockers mean my typing goes funny and my brain turns to eggs. (The original title of this post was “13hour Wordkay HAt.” Seriously.)

When my brain’s like that, all I can really do is crochet. It’s repetitive, it’s soothing, it requires no higher brain functions and barely any muscle control. So these days when I work a lot, I generate hats. They bob up in my wake, the result of one-too-many late night subway rides.

The newest hat, below. It is 20s-themed and pleases me.

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Oh, and sleep. Sleep pleases me very much…

PMC Snapshot

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Here’s my latest jewelry piece, a double pendant. The small necklace is rounded and resembles a seashell; the larger is flat, rough at the edges and etched with miniature leaves. These pieces are sort of what I was talking about when I said I was trying to give my Precious Metal Clay sculptures more love and care. I’m trying to return to treating the material as unique and full of quirky texture, instead of manipulating it to mimic other types of silver jewelry.

My Week on Twitter: 2010-02-26

Friday, February 26, 2010

Dear day: go faster. #
At times I genuinely wish I could be less prickly. But then I think being prickly is what keeps my world the way I like it. Balance, always. #
@nikolasco Come Sunday I will have taken 27 complete trips around the sun, yes. I have learned much about 27. A mathematically cool number. in reply to nikolasco #
RT @maymaym: #Iowa House Reps introduce bill striking anti-harassment protection frm #GLBT #students! http://ur1.ca/my82 via @SchoolSurvival #
You guys, I have the BEST birthday cake EVER, you guys! It is spice cake with caramel frosting and features an epic dinosaur / peep battle. #
@urbantantrika @wendyblackheart @Jaspamaster Thank you, lovely people! in reply to urbantantrika #
Reading Zen & The Art of Motorcycle Maintenance alwys makes me want to bugger off to a teeny liberal arts college to teach creative writing. #
Spent several minutes staring at neon sign: Coffee Shop! The Burger At It's Best! Unfortunate error, or subtle joke on grammar prigs? #
Hey @HiOhMegan – I think your account was hacked! I got a weird spam DM from you. #
Went to Blue Smoke with Mom and co. Think I ate my weight in pulled pork, with a side of death by key lime pie. #

My Week on Twitter: 2010-02-19

Friday, February 19, 2010

RT @barrysaunders @Elmo_Keep: Fuck you, Google: http://bit.ly/ao8jUG #
Dear @GreyhoundBus Free wifi notwithstanding, I'll not forgive you for perpetrating not 1, but 2 travel nightmares upon me in a single week. #
@MajaMajaMaja Hey! Shooting squirrels is hard! in reply to MajaMajaMaja #
It's pretty damned amazing what change a single year can bring. #
Rushing weekend, yet interspersed with comforting, lyrical moments: come lay your bones on the alabaster stones and be my ever-lovin' baby. #
The snow today looks like something from a fairy tale; light, airy, thick as thieves. Worn out dancing slippers and trees of silver, gold. #
@thattoychick I am SO glad someone else gets that reference! By far my favorite fairy tale. in reply to thattoychick #
@nikolasco Hey thanks! @Jaspamaster took it ages ago. There's a whole set of me romping about the village in a silly leather jacket. in reply to nikolasco #
@FrankAngones How about Dr. Who? I suppose it depends upon what you consider "successful." in reply to FrankAngones #
There are too many good photos in this set. I can't make up my mind on which I like best for an icon. @Jaspamaster, your photos skills rock. #
@MollyRen @Fetlife's a great place for #KFA advertising, but only hits a portion of the #KFA audience. Make it a part of a broader strategy. in reply to MollyRen #
@MollyRen Sounds like you're on top of that concept – maybe post to the list asking for suggestions? Look at queer/trans/feminist DC spaces? in reply to MollyRen #

One Year Ago Today

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Saturday was perfect, like a rose-quartz jewel. Today we are like vases full of sea water. We got smashed and all our happy days poured out.

That was my tweet from one year ago, today. Today, right now, almost to the very hour, is precisely one year since Meitar and I broke up. I don’t remember very much from that night, though I remember the days before it with a vivid, surrealist wash of color that almost defies description.

From that night, I remember I went to bed angry. I slept on the living room floor. In all the four years we dated, I had never gone to bed angry before. We made a point of it. Perhaps that was our undoing.

What a year it’s been. Such a year, in fact, that as I sit here at my desk attempting something like nostalgia, very little comes to mind. Somewhere, amidst moving and working and massive personal change, I lost my anger at the whole mixed up mess. I lost a lot of fragility and delicacy and care, which I needed when I was putting myself back together and don’t need now that I am much more whole. What I feel, looking back a year later, is only a vague sense of compassion.

I will probably never tell the full truth on the Internet, I now realize. And I will probably guard the ways in which I speak about this time in my life, for a myriad of reasons that go far beyond one simple messy breakup, that are mostly to do with not wanting to further passive-aggressive behavior within my life. I do not currently subscribe to the public airing of specific grievances, though I have in the past and may in the future.

I have been reading research on happiness, which has been speaking to me of many things I already believed in, such as the possibility of being partially genetically predisposed to a happy mental attitude.

It is a curious thing. Despite being stressed to almost breaking by a dozen different tasks a day, and despite the stagnation of words and paint, and despite my laptop crashing to death last night and taking with it three months of photographs (though not documents, thank goodness), and despite being underslept and over caffeinated, despite all of the still-messy bits of my life, I am content. And beyond that, happy. Happy in a way that makes me laugh for no reason and paint my toenails blue. Happy in a way that builds.

There’s the one-year reflection, the simple truth. And I don’t write very much about my life right now, because what’s there to write, really, when the beginning, middle, and end is just that bloody boring?

Clearly, what’s to write is fiction. I have a writing group again. For joy, for joy, for joy.

My Week on Twitter: 2010-02-12

Friday, February 12, 2010

Getting on a bus to Providence in 2 hours, and I keep compulsively checking the sky for snowfall. Here's hoping the bus outruns the storm. #
Getting set up for #KFAPVD. 3 word intros are wrapped and we're launching 1st presentations in 6 minutes. I'm happy to be here. (4 words?) #
I've decided to liveblog #KFAPVD on SaraEileen.com. Twitter is fun, but I'll catch more value without wordcounts. Zoinks and away! #
@viviane212 Ooo! That's an idea. I'll check it out. in reply to viviane212 #
@maymaym Hey, is there a better way for me to live blog today than using my personal blog? in reply to maymaym #
@viviane212 Good idea. I'm going to sync with @maymaym, #KFAPVD tech guru. in reply to viviane212 #
@thattoychick Working on it. Tell us if it gets better. in reply to thattoychick #
@thattoychick You rock. I love that you can hear us. in reply to thattoychick #
@thattoychick I claim NO responsibility for the tech or orgniztion of @KFAPVD. The credit belongs to @maymaym, @helio_girl & @pledgemistress in reply to thattoychick #
@writingdirty Approximate attendees so far: about 30? Maybe more? #KFAPVD in reply to writingdirty #
@thattoychick Sex Toy Organization is going on right now in 1 of the rooms w/out live stream. I'll catch the end & do some updates. #KFAPVD in reply to thattoychick #
@thattoychick I didn't catch most of it, but a few notes are up: http://saraeileen.com/blog/2010/02/live-blog-kinkforall-providence-kfapvd/ in reply to thattoychick #
Looks like the best way to liveblog #KFAPVD for the moment is to stay on SaraEileen.com. Short notes here, long notes there. Ha-fing-zah. #
I caught / captured as much as I could of @zacmakes talk, but there were too many good moments. I would like art nouveau toys, pls. #KFAPVD #
Mr. M on scene events: "You know that thing I'm into that I'm ashamed of? Here, EVERYONE is into that thing!" #KFAPVD #
Fair warning: I have almost no notes and almost no idea what I'm going to talk about for my #KFAPVD presentation in 20 minutes. #
@maymaym & @helio_girl wear the same outfits to evry @KinkForAll. Interesting creation of persona in space. I dressed carefully too. #KFAPVD #
#KFAPVD is the 5th @KinkForAll since the event started, almost exactly 11 months ago. Stunning and amazing community mobilization. #
"There is no special morality 4 sex. Only the concepts of evryday morality apply: Honesty, courage, common humanity, consideration." #KFAPVD #
Still shaking from my talk. Adrenaline + cold + audience. Thanks for the tweets, ya'll. #KFAPVD Now off to gender discussion with Liam. #
Liam quotes @katebornstein: Shouldn't be about making yourself a woman or a man, but making yourself comfortable in your own body. #KFAPVD #
@sarahdopp It's tricky…it may be easier, but it's not necessarily better, or right. Nor is it a choice that's available to all! #KFAPVD in reply to sarahdopp #
@calamusroot Aw! Sorry you missed it live, but it was recorded, so it'll be posted later. in reply to calamusroot #
@sarahdopp Hi! in reply to sarahdopp #
@mrsexsmith "It's okay to say to your partner 'I feel guilty about how we just played/our roles. Please tell me that it was okay?'" #KFAPVD #
@helio_girl Your frat is "special." #KFAPVD in reply to helio_girl #
Fading fast, so I'm stepping away from #KFAPVD for a food break. Half of me wants multi-day KFAs. The other half laughs at my foolishness. #
@helio_girl StarGate movie is super-kinky. Core of the story is a race of aliens that use mind control to find and keep host bodies. #KFAPVD in reply to helio_girl #
Closing comms & #KFAPVD is wrapped. My complete liveblog is here: http://bit.ly/9ak5cd #
Stuck on a bus running 2 hours behind schedule w/ no way to meet deadlines, yet covered. I feel as though I've mobilized an army from afar. #
@viviane212 Hurray! in reply to viviane212 #
Fav. quote #KFAPVD: For working on improvisation, one needs bloody competence. It is not goodwill which will save the work…it is mastery. #
@writingdirty 13 days until mine. I'll be officially in my late 20s. By hook or by crook, I intend to make this is a positive thing. Meep? in reply to writingdirty #
@ConversioVirium is now a participating group of The Floating World 2010! That means early bird pricing RIGHT NOW, lovely CV peeps. Huzzah! #
@ProblmLikeMaria @Dystopienne @MajaMajaMaja You all apparently know something I do not. WHY would one wash one's hair with beer, again? in reply to ProblmLikeMaria #
@MajaMajaMaja @ProblmLikeMaria I am warily convinced. I will try this tonight and report back. Does it matter what kind of beer it is? in reply to MajaMajaMaja #
@ProblmLikeMaria Do you have to soak with lemon juice to lighten your hair, or is that something that works over multiple applications? in reply to ProblmLikeMaria #
@MajaMajaMaja The only beer we have at the moment is cherrywheat ale. Smells rather nice. But @Celany might scold me for wasting it on hair. in reply to MajaMajaMaja #
@MajaMajaMaja All I can think of is Seton yelling "We're geniuses!" in reply to MajaMajaMaja #
@MajaMajaMaja And a bear… in reply to MajaMajaMaja #
Note to self: You do not need to spend $138 on boots. Even if they are glorious & sexy steampunk-style brown leather boots with brass studs. #
@MajaMajaMaja No link, sadly. They're in a shop by my office. I walk by them every day when I go to lunch – finally caved and tried them on. in reply to MajaMajaMaja #
@barrysaunders Oy-ya, really? I saw that ad on Hulu last night and had to walk away, I was so enraged. Don't encourage them. in reply to barrysaunders #
Thus far, Snowpocalypse 2.0 has been surprisingly unsnowtacular. #
@melebeth Act'ly, as if in answer to my cranky tweet, the skies have opened. Big fat snowflakes & snowman-destroying schoolchildren abound. in reply to melebeth #
@ProblmLikeMaria Hugs! Love! For decorating, take the time to paint. Bright colors change the whole world around you. Do you need art? in reply to ProblmLikeMaria #
@ProblmLikeMaria Send me your address and some links to types of art that you like? in reply to ProblmLikeMaria #
RT @zacmakes Anyone in PVD free Friday 2-5 to help load into #FFF? Or know anyone? It's mostly just watching stuff – payment a possibility. #
RT @alleyinsider Google Buzz's Huge Privacy Flaw http://bit.ly/bLPnrS (I turned it off. Too many ppl w/ protected identities on my lists.) #
@writingdirty Does being "responsable" involve lounging about on a bed of expensive furs? in reply to writingdirty #
@writingdirty <3? Feel better. in reply to writingdirty #

My Week on Twitter: 2010-02-05

Friday, February 5, 2010

@mrsexsmith Marlon Brando: not a mentor, persay, but certainly an icon. Streetcar, Waterfront, Guys & Dolls. Singing in a pinstripe tie. in reply to mrsexsmith #
@lindsayribar Oh. Wow. He does! He SO does! I am laughing hysterically now. I am a bit punchy. But still! (Glad you had fun?) in reply to lindsayribar #
@egoetschius We miss you too, lady! in reply to egoetschius #
Bad: Internet troll hell. Monday slam. Dentist. Good: Exciting delivery of mysterious brown box. Great: @MajaMajaMaja + Co. Seriously great. #
Last mnth Managed Dental Guard denied my insurance claim to have wisdom teeth removed. Now one hurts–but they say that doesn't matter. Rage! #
So it's my birthday in 3 weeks? I sorta forgot. Maybe I should have a party? Also, where the HELL did that year go, and why am I almost 27? #
Should read The Princess Bride again. Also light candles, drink wine, & take a bath. After, y'know, I knock down 3 days of work in 10 hours. #
Hey NYC peeps! Temp data research job starting immediately: $50/day cash, 9am-5pm, at least 2 days, up to 2 wks. Message me if you're game. #
Irony is getting a nosebleed and then, in an effort to get a tissue from the kitchen, cutting my toe WIDE open. Blood is everywhere. Fucker. #
@katebornstein I redo hurtful convos to end differently, siphoning off bitterness & vulnerability. No festering. Keeps me happy. #talk2self in reply to katebornstein #
Dear and lovely #KFAPVD peeps: I have no idea what I should speak on this weekend. Might any of you have requests or suggestions? #
@writingdirty Hrmmm…what about them? in reply to writingdirty #
@MajaMajaMaja Why, you pull them out of hats, of course! in reply to MajaMajaMaja #
@writingdirty Think if I taught that, it would turn into a "why knives are great tools & why great tools are sexy" thing. Still interesting? in reply to writingdirty #
@MajaMajaMaja My entire presentation: "Sorry, somtmes ppl are assholes. Resistance is futile. For future ref, pls see: http://xkcd.com/386/" in reply to MajaMajaMaja #
Surprisingly, Avatar was very much worth seeing a second time. Those IMax screens might be too big… #

My Week on Twitter: 2010-01-29

Friday, January 29, 2010

When faced with the challenge of explaining why this day was so ridiculously, murderously hard, I find myself completely inarticulate. Feh! #
Finally watched the end on Dr. Who. Very cranky. #
@helio_girl Awww…I really can't answer that. But I'll send you the episodes! in reply to helio_girl #
Reading over old blog posts, I realize I never wrote last spring's breakup down on paper. Too soon. Now I wonder if I should. Too late? #
@egoetschius The end of the Season 4 Specials…the end of everything that's been released so far, basically. in reply to egoetschius #
The Highwaymen keep me company on the cab ride home. Hello late nights again. Feels good; I think I've hit a solid stride for work/life. #
@Jaspamaster Happy birthday! in reply to Jaspamaster #
@helio_girl Sure, lady. Files are too big to email, but shoot me your mailing address and I'll send you all the Dr. Who your heart desires. in reply to helio_girl #
Hey NYC jobseekers! My cmpny's hiring a receptionist/account coordinator. Decent gig, nice place, great people, interesting industry. DM me. #
@melebeth Um…I'm sorry? in reply to melebeth #
Alwys thought Rainbow Brite & friends were fat, unfeminine & dumpy, but Hallmark now has it covered! http://bit.ly/dvdHV5 (v. @thepete) Bah! #
@FrankAngones Clearly Hallmark feels that more little girls should follow Ziggy's example of peace, love, promiscuity and massive drug use. in reply to FrankAngones #
Exercises in self-awareness: Yes, I am overstressed. Yes, I need to work less, delegate more and sleep longer. All right. Now execute, Sara. #

My Week on Twitter: 2010-01-22

Friday, January 22, 2010

@ProblmLikeMaria Here's one program calling for immediate unskilled volunteers to travel to Haiti: http://bit.ly/5AZAZT Email them? in reply to ProblmLikeMaria #
@katebornstein Smell & taste're my best senses to jog memory: eating a childhood comfort food, visiting the ocean, burning a scented candle. in reply to katebornstein #
@mrsexsmith Re: masculinity outside the USA, I recommend @barrysaunders. He can speak to an Oz perspective. I think you'd like one another. in reply to mrsexsmith #
I suddenly feel a distinct urge to re-read the entire Rowan series. Sexy telekinesis whoops dragons any day of the week. #
Finally reading Anais Nin, because I lost my collection of Fitzgerald short stories. I'd hoped I'd grown out of losing precious things. #
I would like to not be sick now, please. It makes my nose the wrong shape. #
Coworker & I discuss when we like to end the workday. He leaves when his work is done. I leave when the quality of my work starts suffering. #
@barrysaunders WHAT did you DO to your HAIR!? #
@barrysaunders I am deeply displeased with this situation. in reply to barrysaunders #
@barrysaunders Buy conditioner. Move to New York. in reply to barrysaunders #